Until Death.

I stared into her eyes and told her how much I loved her.
She never responded. She didn’t have to.

I knew what she was thinking. 

She’s lying in front of me and all I can do is think of spending the rest of my days with her.
My hands are still wrapped around her throat,
And I’m watching the life pour out of her eyes.
Such beauty. Such perfection.
With one last gasp for breath,
My love is forever mine. 

For the blade.

It’s the pain you need
The pain you crave
The pain you can’t get enough of
The pain that’s driving you insane.
The tears
The screams
The shaking
The rush of it all.
The sickness
The joy
The regret
The euphoria that sweeps over.
You want the words to come out right
You want someone to hear.
You want to stop the hurting
You want to stop the fear.
Drain the mind
Drain the body
Drain the soul.
I can’t escape you my love,
This I know.
For you are my Juliet,
And I am your Romeo.

Cupcakes rock.

She was a bombshell.
She could get any guy she wanted.
But she stuck with me.
I fed her lies all the time just to keep her around.
But I never wanted her for her body…
I didn’t even want her for her mind.
She just made amazing cupcakes.

Cupcakes rock.

For a certain Anderfan.

It’s in my nature to destroy myself
It’s just like me to put you back on your shelf.

I thought I was put there from the start
I didn’t think I had a chance.

I didn’t know what I couldn’t see
All I knew was how much you meant to me.

And now my heart is in a blender
I don’t think I’ve felt like this before. 

I swear this fear has taken over me
I’m left beaten, bruised, and bloody.

I’ve jumped off the bridge on which you all stand
Consumed by rejection and fear, I sink to the ocean floor.

It’s in my nature to destroy myself.