For a certain Anderfan.

It’s in my nature to destroy myself
It’s just like me to put you back on your shelf.

I thought I was put there from the start
I didn’t think I had a chance.

I didn’t know what I couldn’t see
All I knew was how much you meant to me.

And now my heart is in a blender
I don’t think I’ve felt like this before. 

I swear this fear has taken over me
I’m left beaten, bruised, and bloody.

I’ve jumped off the bridge on which you all stand
Consumed by rejection and fear, I sink to the ocean floor.

It’s in my nature to destroy myself.